My Growth Was Disguised As Being Homesick – Moving Forward, And Why It Makes Us Look Back.

My Growth Was Disguised As Being Homesick – Moving Forward, And Why It Makes Us Look Back.

For those of us who travel long term, we are expected to get homesick. We are bound to miss old passions and hobbies in our lives we used to lead, and miss certain habits we were used to having whether they were healthy for us or not. Or maybe we just miss our bed, family and friends or that thing from Amazon we ordered once a month. Remedy your home-sickly thoughts by remembering one thing that helped me while on the road, but it took a while to realize what exactly it was….Change and Growth. Below is a train of thoughts and how I came to the realization. It’s one of my favorite realizations, I hope you enjoy the short read.

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On days like today I miss things about what my life was five simple months ago. I miss certain people, certain times in my life, hobbies I was starting, certain regularities I was used to doing, seeing and believing. I think what it would be like if I stopped everything and went back to my old life… The thing about doing a trip like this is that I am learning I can’t just “go back.” I have already made a huge step to go forward, to better myself in terms of new cultures, how I handle certain situations and more importantly self-awareness. If I didn’t know how already, I’ve learned to have my own back, to keep an eye out for myself, to make sure I am safe, happy and always having fun. I am learning that in such a huge personal step forward, you miss things about the old you, your old doings and old familiarities, but just because you miss them, does not mean you need them back in your life. Then it hit me. It’s growth. Don’t get me wrong I am in no way growing apart from my friends and family, but to really grow is to understand that you will miss certain things and people in your life, and growth is a constant reminder of what was once easy, and what was once familiar. Growing is hard, and maybe that’s why it takes some people a little longer to “grow up” than it takes others, because we are all on our own paths. Your journey begins the moment you take yourself out of your comfort zone by doing something you have always wanted to do or something you thought you never could do, or better yet something you never even knew existed – no matter the size of the matter. Because if I’ve learned one thing it’s knowing that people love to talk about perfect timing of things, yet, the weird thing about life is timing is never good, there is no such thing as a perfect moment; you need to create your moments and your time. We are always using time as an excuse, time will heal this, the timing wasn’t right when we met etc. etc. don’t just sit around and wait. Put in the time, to creating time, to create you. 

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